Posts tagged 1 kings 11
Posts tagged 1 kings 11
4 As Solomon grew old, his wives turned his heart after other gods, and his heart was not fully devoted to the Lord his God, as the heart of David his father had been. - 1 Kings 11:4
Solomon already disobeyed God by marrying foreign women that the Lord forbids him to marry. And because of that, his heart had turned away from God and worship other gods. His foreign wives led him to do that.
Despite of the bad things that he did to God and the disobedience he made to the Lord, God still shows mercy towards him. Even though God wanted to discipline him by tearing his kingdom away from him and giving it to one of his subordinates, He still showed mercy to Solomon. God said that he won’t do this in his lifetime. And God did this also for the sake of his servant David, who obeyed everything He had commanded.
God shows how merciful and gracious He is towards us despite of how much we have hurt Him…
Recently, I’ve been struggling from depression. I am not exactly sure what’s the root of the problems I’m having now. But this, makes me far away from God and disobeyed Him. Just like what happen to Solomon, he cling too much with his wives and forget that there is God whom should be the number 1 in our lives. And just like me, I cling too much with the problems that I am facing and the loneliness that I am having, and forget about God’s Words.
I don’t want my heart to turn away from Him or be hardened. I just don’t know now how to start again and go back to Him. I feel that I am alone, I’m lost, no body cares, no body understands and no body loves me. And these are all lies of Satan. Why do I allow these thoughts in my mind?! If I am saying that no body loves me, just look at the CROSS and you will see, that someone out there died for me just to prove how much He loves me. What other evidence I still need to show to myself that I am not alone and that somebody loves me more that what I could ever think of?!
God is not the one turning away from me and giving me this loneliness. It is just me turning away from Him and clinging too much to my problems.
God already told me to cast all my cares and burdens to Him but it’s just me who never listens that’s why everything seems to become heavy and the loads are already become unbearable to carry.
God said to me that He won’t give me problems beyond what I can bare.
I CAN’T DO ANYTHING WITHOUT HIM IN MY LIFE…
Despite of the disobedience and hardening of heart I have towards God, He still showed how much He loves me. I can still feel His grace and mercy towards me. God is hurting so much to see how much I am hurting right now. Why do I allow myself keep on hurting God all over again?! Have I not forget how Jesus saved me from my sins? And on how Jesus changed my life and decided to live for Him?
Father God, at this point fo my life, I am hurting so much with all the negative things that are happening to my life. I felt so lonely and alone. I felt that the only person is to blame is none other than me. Please Lord, purify my heart. Sustain me with you unconditional love and give me the peace that I need. Strengthen me God as I am weak. I cannot continue this race without you in my life. Give me back the joy and cheerful heart that was lost in me. Forgive me Father for all the hurtful things that I’ve done to you. I don’t know how will I start again. I felt like I am broken to pieces. Help me God to mend my heart and to fixed all these broken pieces. Purify me Oh God, and restore my heart. Lead me to the path of righteousness. I love you so much God and I am so sorry. All these I pray, in your son’s most precious name, Jesus. Amen.
1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight;
so you are right in your verdict
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Yet you desired faithfulness even in the womb;
you taught me wisdom in that secret place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
so that sinners will turn back to you.
14 Deliver me from the guilt of bloodshed, O God,
you who are God my Savior,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 Open my lips, Lord,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 My sacrifice, O God, is[b] a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart
you, God, will not despise.
18 May it please you to prosper Zion,
to build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then you will delight in the sacrifices of the righteous,
in burnt offerings offered whole;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.